Monday, August 30, 2010

Waiting till Thursday

We are waiting till Thursday. This waiting is killing me. This whole infertility process is waiting and more waiting. It really tests your patience. It really tests your prayers. I am so lucky that school has started as I am so busy with teaching, and planning, and tutoring, and all that other stuff that I don't really get much of chance to think about it. When told Jon yesterday that my only free night was Thursday, he said, no, we have to go to the doctor on Thursday. So I guess that was a good sign???

I am also scared that everyone knows that Thursday that I go back to the doctor. What if it is good news? Do I tell everyone? Should I wait? How do I lie to this many people? I have a wonderful support group, I have my faith, I have my husband. I can do this.

Just waiting till Thursday…..

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

School has started....I am super busy

Hi Everyone!

This has been a super busy three weeks with school starting and all of that. Keep praying....

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Thankful Saturday

I am sure that you could tell that school is back in session, as my time to post has gone out the window. Tuesday through Friday was a huge success in so many ways. I wanted to post on Thursday, then on Friday, but this morning will have to do….

Thankful Saturday…

  1. I am thankful that I made it through my first week of school without any major issues and lots of positive ones. CCS now has a contract after three years without, I have a new classroom with a window and a good air-conditioning, all of my lessons went well with the new students, and I enjoyed catching up with everyone that I missed over the summer
  2. The Indiana State Fair, Jon and I went on Thursday after school in the 95 degree weather. We got a great parking spot and did not last very long, but had a shake from the Dairy Bar and enjoyed walking around.
  3. Friends…last night we met Sarah and David to spend the night at Connor's Prairie and as we were walking in we ran into JoEllen and Matt and their neighbor. Too funny, but the 8 of us has a great time.
  4. My prayer time. These past few weeks not only has my mind been working overtime, but my prayers have been too. Only God knows the future, and I have to trust that He knows best.
  5. The weekend. All of you working folks know what I am talking about, after being back in school for five days; I am so thankful that today at 7 I am still in bed and not looking at a classroom full of students.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Back to School

I went back to work today. Bright and early, up at 5, stopped to get gas, workout with Jon and then at 7 went to get my blood drawn and was at school by 7:30. I had completed more by 7:30 than I had all weekend. And I just got home after a whole day of figuring out what is going to happen tomorrow and I am tired! Oh my gosh, I am tried….tomorrow will be worse with 90 students.

I am feeling alright, trying my hardest to not read into every pain in my stomach and just trying to forget that we may or may not be pregnant. God knows, He already knows, I just need to continue to pray for peace with whatever plan he has for us. I know that His plan is much better than mine and today it I need to trust in that. This whole journey is about trust and these past two weeks are the hardest.

Happy New School Year!!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Three More Days of Freedom

You would think that after having to be home for two days I would have written more. Well nothing exciting really happens when you are home alone….My parents were down on Monday and Tuesday morning which was nice. My dad finished our laundry room, installing a sink and bead board. I love it! We also had a leak under our main bathroom shower, which was dripping water into the garage, it was an easy fix and still covered under warranty but now the clean-up is a bit much. My mom went grocery shopping and all of that stuff and my sister came out and bed rested with me. Jon has been fabulous through all of this as well and is so over protective.

I am three days from going back to school and I have officially done nothing this summer. I looked back at my list of what I wanted to do over the past ten weeks and yes, it was probably a bit much to start with, but I have accomplished about three of the items. Oh well. I was guess they just move to the lets do this during the first semester list….or just eliminate them all together. That is the funny thing about lists, it is great when you get to cross things off, but what if you accomplish a bunch but you never wrote it down. Maybe the most important thing not on the list got accomplished??

So a few more days of sleeping in, a few more days of nothing and then back to work full time. I am looking forward to the schedule, to meeting my students, and going back to school.



Sunday, August 1, 2010

Princess Day 1

I am pregnant today. Jon and I went this morning where they transferred 2 embryos. We even have pictures of them. Now we are waiting to see if they attach. Today's process was not difficult at all. In fact it is one of the easiest parts of the experience. The waiting is the most difficult part of all of this, but we are so blessed that we have crossed every controllable hurdle with few problems. Throughout these past few days I have been putting my hands on my stomach and praying the Lord's Prayer, know that Thy Will be done, no matter what.

My fertility clinic has been fabulous. There are three doctors at the office and my main guy has been on vacation this week, therefore I have seen the other two this week and was just as impressed by both of them. I have purposely never named any of them in this blog because I don't want someone to judge my clinic on something that has happened to me. You may have a totally different experience, but if you ever need a referral I would be happy to talk to you in private. I have heard both positive and negative things about my doctors and all fertility doctors in Indy but I am happy to say that I have not had any issues.

Today is considered my "Princess Day." Not total bed rest, but take it easy day. No cooking, cleaning, lifting a finger. It is pretty nice and Jon has been wonderful, getting me water, the remote, my cell phone. I get one more of these tomorrow! I also had a nice surprise; Erica and Dave were driving though Indy and stopped by for lunch. Jon went out and got Dom's pizza and we had a great lunch with them. It was a good distraction and a great way to spend a part of the afternoon.

My parents will be down tomorrow when Jon is at work, so I am well taken care of. My dad is going to finish our laundry room as well. Yeah! Our last project done…..Just in time to possibly start another one….